Finding Your Peace

I had a breakdown a few weeks ago, things have been turbulent at work, my household has been in a period of transition, and I have been feeling very uncertain about my future. My mind has felt extremely chaotic, and it has spilled into other areas of my life. There is no peace in my life. It takes hours to fall asleep at night because I cannot turn off my thoughts. I did not have anyone that I could go to at that moment because I told myself that no one would understand. Every fiber in my being wanted to call someone for support but I did not want to be a burden to anyone. After a little time passed, I was able to calm down. I began to write down all the things that were piled high in my mind and I realized that I had done it again, I neglected myself and my needs. I had spent so much time pouring into everyone else, there was nothing reserved for me. My routines were nonexistent, my social life was an illusion, and I had not taken time to rest and recharge my batteries. I was mentally and emotionally exhausted and I was to blame. Something a lot of us forget is that we are responsible for ourselves. When we do not have a clear pulse on what is happening not only around us but also within us, we lose sight of what is most important. YOU. You are the most important person in your life. If you do not stop and take time to do the things that make you happy, you will waste away while everyone else continues to move around you. Instead of feeling sorry for myself, I decided to create peace in my life. I had breakfast with a friend accompanied by a healthy conversation, I went to see an art exhibit alone, then I had lunch with someone who means the world to me, and it made my heart happy. By the time I returned home, I was smiling again. It is unfortunate that we forget how important it is to do things that bring us joy until they become absent from our lives.

Also, please do not misunderstand my need for peace and companionship. Peace comes in many forms, for me talking to people about things that matter to me lightens the load and creates a sense of peace within me.

"It is okay to take time for yourself. We give so much of ourselves to others, and we need to be fueled both physically and mentally. If we are in balance, it helps us in all our interactions."

- Faith Hill